Leaving baby was 'most difficult thing': London bomber
The London bombings ringleader left a will in which he asked for his wife's understanding and told his baby daughter that leaving her behind was the hardest part, an inquest heard Wednesday.
Mohammed Sidique Khan, 30, apologised to his wife Hasina Patel for lying, saying he was doing it to please God, the inquest into the victims' death was told.
Khan and three other British Muslim accomplices committed the worst terror atrocity on British soil when they blew up three London Underground trains and a bus, killing themselves and 52 others on July 7, 2005.
In the will, he wrote to his wife: "You have been very patient with me even though I never told you what I was doing and often lied to you. I know you trusted me and for that I thank you.
"Please forgive me for the deceit, lies and my absence, it was to please Allah."
He added: "Try to understand what I did."
Addressing his daughter, he wrote: "The most difficult thing in my life was to leave you.
"I ask you to forgive me for not being a part of your life in this world."
The suicide bomber also left a handwritten note saying he had provided some money to buy "new toys and stuff" for his baby.
The inquest, held at the Royal Courts of Justice in London, was told that Khan had earlier severed ties with a bookshop because it stocked works written by a scholar who condemned suicide bombings.
Another of the bombers, Jermaine Lindsay, pleaded with his teenage lover to stay with him in London on the eve of the strikes, the inquest heard.
Nicki Clackmore, 17, said Lindsay, who killed 26 people when he detonated a bomb on a train travelling on the Piccadilly line, asked her if she could get a gun as he was planning to go to London to "teach some people a lesson".
Lindsay, who began the relationship two weeks before the attacks, read Al-Qaeda inspired poetry and told Clackmore that he loved her "more than you can imagine", the inquest heard.
Clackmore asked the bomber if he would be around for her 18th birthday on July 14 2005, to which Lindsay replied: "I might be around then, but then again I might not."
Ringleader Khan apparently texted Lindsay on June 25, a message which agitated the future bomber, according to Clackmore.
"He tried to control his temper and said that he needed to prepare himself," Clackmore recalled.
"I asked him what did he need to prepare himself for, and he said, 'shooting the people who need to be taught a lesson in London'," she said.
The long-awaited hearings, which began in October, are expected to conclude in March.
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