Peace eludes victims of East German secret police

Peace eludes victims of East German secret police

26th October 2009, Comments 0 comments

For many East Germans who lived through the Iron Curtain, the legacy of the Stasi lives on.

Twenty years have passed since the fall of the Berlin Wall but victims of communist East Germany's despised Stasi secret police say fighting off history's ghosts is still a daily struggle.

"Not a day goes by without us reliving the past," said Carl-Wolfgang Holzapfel, 65, who was jailed for crimes against the state and to this day cannot stand being in a room with the door closed.

A West German, he was arrested in East Germany for political activism, jailed and later "bought back" by his government in exchange for hard currency, a common practice at the time.

Overwhelmed with memories

Five of a group of men sitting around a table spent between 13 months and eight years in prison for a variety of crimes, including "hostility to the regime,” "illegal trafficking,” "attempted flight from the East German republic" and "spying.”

"I can't stay in a small flat because I feel I'm choking (...) and when I watch a film about those times I'm overwhelmed with memories," Holzapfel said. "Speaking of it here helps, we're a community."

Others in the group agree, with one suggesting they have been "abandoned by a society that just wanted to turn the page" on history after the fall of the Berlin Wall.

After the reunification of the country in 1990, the government allowed victims of the East German state to inspect their Stasi files so they can draw a line under the past.


A visitor makes his way down a corridor leading to interrogation rooms in the former prison of the East German, communist-era secret police, known as the Stasi, at Hohenschoenhausen in Berlin

Lost lives

But some secrets hidden in the files just make things worse.

"The worst shock came from reading the file," says 74-year-old Edith Fiedler, who spent 20 months in prison because of tales told to the Stasi by a "jealous" sister-in-law. "I only found that out when I read my file," she said, recalling how authorities took away her nine-year-old son and put him in a home.

Sitting opposite her, her son, Daniel Fieldler, now 41, remembers how he was lied to and told his mother was in a coma after a road accident.

"The Stasi took my life away," he said.

Several in the group have gone through periods of depression. Some have considered suicide.

Tatjana Sterneberg, 57, who was betrayed to the Stasi as she prepared to flee East Germany with her Italian boyfriend, suffers to this day.

"In jail, I didn't get enough to drink, I didn't get enough to eat, I was given psychoactive drugs,” she said. “They put me in a straightjacket.”

She and her boyfriend were held for some three years before being "bought" by the West German government.

But the couple was never able to get over it. They divorced and in 1996, she was hospitalised for depression.

"We are victims of the Stasi but we have a credibility problem,” said Sterneberg. “We have to prove we suffered.”

"We need this support group because we can relate to one another," added Fiedler.

Victims of the former east German secret police, the Stasi, (From L) Adam Lauks, Carl-Wolfgang Holzapfel, and Werner Krüger sit around the table as they recount their experiences at a community centre in eastern Berlin


Adam Lauks, 59, agrees. Once married to an East German, he was jailed for seven years on charges of smuggling.

Today he is obsessed with the thought his former wife might have betrayed him.

"I'm sure of it but there's no proof,” he said. “It's killing me."

The only "real" spy at the table is Werner Krueger, 73, who spent eight years and three months in jail before being exchanged for another spy.

"The Stasi was never able to destroy me," he said. The others kept quiet.

Audrey Kauffmann/AFP/Expatica

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